About time I blog again, right?!
The other day at work, I was sitting on the teeter-tawter getting jostled around by a 200-pound 7th grader named "Seth". And I just kinda had a little reflection time.
I thought about how pathetic I have been this past year.
For so long I have lived in the self-imposed saddness because I wanted things to go differently or because I don't want to get older.
Recently,God has shown me how precious life is through the death of my Granddad.
So instead of trashing my life up by feeling sorry for myself, I will respect it because I was created for something greater than couch cushions and cap'n crunch dinners.
I just feel so different, and it's a relief. Thanks Jesus!
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Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Engagement Season
Spring, Summer, Fall, and the dull, depressing Winter...or as I like to call it Engagement Season.
Everyone gets engaged in Winter. It's like the bitter-cold weather and achy (that word looks better spelled "achey" to me...) joints put everyone in a romantic mood. And I totally mean EVERYONE. It seems like every person I've ever met just got engaged.
Last week i was fitted for my bridesmaid dress for my sisters wedding. Sunday night, I met up with Josh's family and Jeff to eat dinner and discuss Kristy's (Josh's sister) wedding picture plan. And then that night I went to Bride Wars. I've been to BILLION weddings this past semester. And there's this unfun game my family plays called Make Abi Uncomfortable, it's pretty easy to play- you just make Abi Pulattie jokes all the time.
Weddings and engagements are totally haunting me.
And I'll totally be transparent, at times I get a little jealous/anxious. But that's totally normal. I am a girl. I like attention. I like pretty things.
But, I think people lose sight in what a wedding really represents. Yea, sure, it's the brides day to look pretty and have lots of jewelry. But, it's also a ceremony of commitment. Not a lease-to-own kinda thing. You can't take this back. It's a covenant. I was raised by my parents (who are still married) and just being a kid I could tell that marriages completely suck at times (but, not all the time...). I may know a bunch of people getting married but I know more divorced people. And that sucks 100%.
In class today, two girls were chatting about their future weddings. One girl said that her fiance told her to not waste money on a wedding dress (total tool bag, right?). But she went to a $99 dress sale and bought one.
I silently gloated because I know that will never be me. Then I felt bad for a second that I was judgemental. But then I kept eavesdropping.
I know someday I'll get married. My wedding will be huge, gorgeous, full of love, extravagant, at times stressful, expensive, fun and of course romantic. I also know that my wedding will be a microcosm of my marriage. Because whenever I tie the knot, I'll be ready to plan my retirement with that man. It's forever baby.
Everyone gets engaged in Winter. It's like the bitter-cold weather and achy (that word looks better spelled "achey" to me...) joints put everyone in a romantic mood. And I totally mean EVERYONE. It seems like every person I've ever met just got engaged.
Last week i was fitted for my bridesmaid dress for my sisters wedding. Sunday night, I met up with Josh's family and Jeff to eat dinner and discuss Kristy's (Josh's sister) wedding picture plan. And then that night I went to Bride Wars. I've been to BILLION weddings this past semester. And there's this unfun game my family plays called Make Abi Uncomfortable, it's pretty easy to play- you just make Abi Pulattie jokes all the time.
Weddings and engagements are totally haunting me.
And I'll totally be transparent, at times I get a little jealous/anxious. But that's totally normal. I am a girl. I like attention. I like pretty things.
But, I think people lose sight in what a wedding really represents. Yea, sure, it's the brides day to look pretty and have lots of jewelry. But, it's also a ceremony of commitment. Not a lease-to-own kinda thing. You can't take this back. It's a covenant. I was raised by my parents (who are still married) and just being a kid I could tell that marriages completely suck at times (but, not all the time...). I may know a bunch of people getting married but I know more divorced people. And that sucks 100%.
In class today, two girls were chatting about their future weddings. One girl said that her fiance told her to not waste money on a wedding dress (total tool bag, right?). But she went to a $99 dress sale and bought one.
I silently gloated because I know that will never be me. Then I felt bad for a second that I was judgemental. But then I kept eavesdropping.
I know someday I'll get married. My wedding will be huge, gorgeous, full of love, extravagant, at times stressful, expensive, fun and of course romantic. I also know that my wedding will be a microcosm of my marriage. Because whenever I tie the knot, I'll be ready to plan my retirement with that man. It's forever baby.
Monday, November 3, 2008
About Me
I'm 20 going on 17. I love and hate where I am in life right now. I'm a junior in college at the prestigious East Central University in Ada Ok. I work as an after school teacher at Latta Public School, teaching the third and fourth graders. I live in a giant pink house thats in a neighborhood that has both mansions and broken down shacks.
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